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Tuesday, March 21, 2006
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+ '.' + What got into me + '.' +
Just finished meeting up with Lisa and Jin...
Always have alot of thought when i am alone.... been thinking so much
dont know what got into me too... suddenly think that life is a movie being
watched by others and the role plays is yourself
sometimes same things,same situation happened to you but
you are just at lost when you can give people advice so well but you
just cant handle it yourself... do find it quite pissed off...
People are very contradicting... i am saying myself... sometimes
just dont know what i want mannn... maybe because i am women?
frickle-minded? down because having PMS? no..no.. just
dont know what got into me too..
I really really really want to people surround me happy...
i really do... cen de!! for this i can guarantee...
I no longer asking why this and why that... i no longer bear grudges
towards anyone... i no longer find this world unfair....
i no longer hate anyone... i no longer pin hope on anything....
But my tears still rolled down... Must be because of the memory...
Dont know why too i myself cried first when the person who got it
didnt even cry.. maybe i am too emotional... towards life... towards love
towards work towards friends.. and toward myself....
I am not that honour as what other said... i do hate but... thats in the past
I am not doing what i am doing because i want to prove anything..
I am doing it cuz my heart want to do it though my mind
somehow object it...
But somehow my heart always overrule my mind...
I dont want to lose her... but i still cant forget the memory that we once had...
dont worry i dont love him anymore.. really.. its just me.. the prob lies on me
sometimes i really feel like leave here and settle at other country
i know its a coward kind of attitude to do this.. but i believe in times
will heal all wounds..
I hope this entry dont affect anyone.. i just want to unload my burden.. cuz
i really dont want others to worry about me anymore.. i
just want to let out only
PS: This entry dont mean for anything anyone... especially u ok...
u dont anyhow think hor!!! its just me..
leaving in my own world.. you
must be happy ok!! u know who u are!!! i love you all
:::Jokes of the day :::
mOst NSmen will sleep in the cupboard to prevent being
caught by instructor!!!
:::Saw this meaningful poem on webby :::
Why do you hurt me
When u know how much I love u
When u know how much I need you
Why do I wait for you
When I know the wait is gonna be so long
Why do I expect happiness around you
When I know this can never happen
Why do I ever hurt you
When I know this would bring me pain
Why do I expect so much
When I have nothing to return
If love meant to be tears and sorrow
Why do we feel happy in love
Why do we still cherish every moment
That we have spent in love.
I still love u no matter whatever pain it has caused
Will always do the same, no matter what you have done . . .
"." Last But Not least Happy Birthday to Sam colen heheh "."
~HARON
B'CUZ OF U~
::HiPoPoMoUsE::: fishing at 11:51 PM
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