.+.+. B.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l M.e.m.o.r.i.e.s B'cuz Of U .+.+.

{Thursday, March 23, 2006 . }

+'.'+ Dreams +'.'+

Always have this dream... I dont know what does it mean but i swear

i have been dreaming this same situation of dream hundred over times

in my life already... The scenario are all same.. it only happened in different

place and different timing. It happened to the same person too...

Could this dreams happened because of the day self of me? Could this all

just because of what i am thinking and what i am doing in the day? and it

reflect to me in the night? I was so miserable inside the dream.. I was

so helpless to do something that was so easy... I try very hard but

it just cant success.. i always cried badly in the dream.. and when i

wake up the pain still fresh in my heart.. its just so real.. dont know

how to describe but... its really very weird.. The scenario was something

like this.. when i try to call this specific people... there always be

loophole.. eithere it would be i press wrong no.. no matter how many

times i re-key in the no but there will always be 1 no that is wrong,

and if all the numbers are correct then my phone would be low batt

All this situation happened when i am having dangerous, when

i am seriously need help, But till now there is none success attempt

i am able to call for help.. what does it represent? Is it really

from my mind? from what i've been thinking in the day? Or

It just meant that It doesnt meant to be so no matter how many

thousand times you try the result will always be the same too?

I've been so rebellious in the dream cuz i not accepting it.. To do

something that you have been working so hard but in the end

it just not meant to be yours is painful punishment one ever have.

Last time when i having nightmare there will always be that some1

who will wake me up from my dream no matter where and when.

But its all memory now.. beautiful memory.. hee hee I would never

bear to erase whatever small things cuz Its once beautiful memory

that make me the most happiest women on earth.

Next week i will be leaving S'pore for my hometown.. I guess its

a good time for me to take a break... It has been almost 2 years since

i last went back. Miss the place, the people and the smell of it so

much. The place where i born and i grow up..

'BEAUTIFUL MEMORY'

Last time i used to go to this mountain which about 2 hours drive

away from my house, the weather was cold there and the fruits are

freshly pick from the trees, and the best thing that can happened

at this cold place is having steamboat or BBQ. The feeling was so

good back then... though this time i going back the place might

be the same but the feeling is different now.... When people

grow up they then to have more things to think and they just not

the same old them anymore due to surroundings...

Though i am different from other child who have their parents

bringing them around shopping, eat and picnic but i am really

feel very contented cuz i have i have a loving grandma, a good

grandpa( though he is no longer in this world but he is always

stay in my heart) and Have gugu thats just like my mum

already... I love my family thus i always try to be strong

in front of them.. well though they can see through me..

due to my bad acting perhaps...

I know sometimes i maybe too harsh to u all but i dont

mean to be like that.. really... I'M SORRY!!! I just dont want

you all worry about me... I grow up ler.. i really know what i am

doing and i know how to protect myself ler.. at least i love myself

more ler now... I know no matter what i do you all are behind me

though you know it wont be good ending. I know u all want me

to be happy.. I wan to be HAPPY too... and i am really HAPPY

with my life now.. haaha Cen de!!! :)

+"."+Three Of us So young Back Then+"."+

+"."+ Sis n Me(always looks so gloomy de)+"."+

+"."+ See the date?? 1989 wow.. how old was i back then+"."+

+"."+The only Pic i've got of my papa n mama wedding+"."+

(My Papa shuai ba... hehehe!!)

:::Jokes of the century:::

For this pic i've ever ask my aunts which one is me in the picture..

hahaa arghhh..... so stupid of me haha

Haa haa then now hor suddenly there is one boy,15 yrs old talking to me in

skype i dont know how he got my accbut when i see the msg dont know

what " karl lovesharon" then i should have guessed it..

its either his ex-gf or his crush name sharon..

haa see indeed itis when i ask him.. then when he told me

he is 15 i was like.. SO YOUNG!!! then he reply me no lar...

Then He asked me how old i am then i told him 23... then he reply....

woah so old arh.. what the....!!! isnt he asked for beat?? haa

really very comical lor him Then i told him i am married with two kids...

but just divorced.. haa then kling scolded when i told her about it.. haa

Say Small kid also want to bluff.. haa haa no lar.. dun mean anything lar

just feel bored.. haa Sorry yar boy!!! haa *show guilty face hee hee

11:39 Pm

Supposingly meet kailing go home together de but while waiting

for Kling, Guess who called me? rare guest wor... haa Boon called

me if i wanna to meet him At Jurong Point for dinner... Asking

Kling along too but she said she eaten ler... then parted with kling

at Jurong east and i cont the ride to Boon Lay... Meeting Boon

at The Andersen Ice-cream there... Three of us having 2 Scoops

each sia... Ah boon lar choose that place.. haa fattening ler...

guilty sia... kekeke... but thanks boon for the ice-cream ya.. hee hee

Love u, guy!! hee (below are some new Andersen spokeperson keke :)

+"."+Andersen Ice-Cream+"."+

+"."+Me n Boon+"."+

+"."+Sharon N Fen+"."+

+"."+Thanks gal for the Night+"."+

Hee Hee then went to Macdonald to have dinner... sinful dinner arghhh
haha tommorow gonna strict diet ler.. hehe Really happy sia catching up
with boon n Fen.. Talked alot n really really happy... Went to NTUC buy
some Instant noodle for boon to bring in to camp n bought dried Mango
for myself.. dont know y been craving mango n preserve plum recently
keke dun anyhow think wor~~ i m ok.. haha..

:::Thanks Guy for the Night:::

Update on some of my creation

+"."+Act Cute+"."+

~HARON
B'CUZ OF U~

::HiPoPoMoUsE::: fishing at 11:56 PM
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