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Thursday, August 10, 2006
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+'.'+ The stronger i hold it the futher it flies from m e +'.'+
Things always not on my side...
I always in the position accepting the decision rather than making decision
the harder i told myself not to do any mistakes the more mistakes i am making
Sometimes its better not to promise myself anything...
cuz i always being fooled by it....
Honestly i never expect anyone would understand me for this... Once you made
mistakes i know no matter what somehow yourself are responsible for it... i know
it takes 2 hands to clap....
Thus, i dont want to make any promises to myself anymore from this moment
onwards... The longer i live in this world... the more ugliness i discovered.... The older
i get... the more beautiful things turned out to be devil in disguise... and most of
the ugliness i discovered within my ownself...
ITs really sometimes you have intention to help someone but you would never realise
that by helping him in one small problem might lead him into doing same bigger
mistakes... Sometimes someone really dont deserve any chances... like myself!!!
I just want to live happily... Is it that difficult?
I know there are noone to blame for this.. i brought this upon myself...
I am not any far better than.....
I think its time for me to learn to face the problems and not avoiding it...
I am taking a break from this world for awhile...
i would find the best solution to it...
I seriously dont want to hurt anyone
nor i bear to destroy the beautiful dreams
but i cant just see you being kept in the ur world full of lie....
Maybe in the beginning i should have expected... things not that easy
I am too naive to have think that things are that simple....
but whatever i do i really dont have motive of getting something in return
but to believe or not its your right....
I know things getting out of hand this time its purely my fault...
In the first place i shouldn't have given any chance...
then things wouldn't be this complicated today...
Maybe if i told you early you wouldn't be this hurt now...
I am apologise for that... but i know sorry means nothing now...
nor my words means anything to you...
Its all because i dont bear to see your once thinks so high up
its so ugly in fact.... but reality is very cruel...
I sincerely hope you know whose this blog i am writting too...
Look people surround you.... They might be wolf in disguised...
I know i shouldn't be naive anymore by not hurting anyone
with my decision... no matter what we just cant get the best of
two worlds... right?
Maybe HE have all this planned... letting make mistakes... seeing things
that i cant accept the fact and by then i would learn to understand more
the meaning of process of life... i would see this world wisely. And not all
kindness would pay off or help....
~HARON
B'CUZ OF U~
::HiPoPoMoUsE::: fishing at 1:42 PM
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